Scorpio New Moon - November 9, 2007
In my part of town, the colors of the leaves are transforming from green to brilliant reds, oranges and yellows. This beautiful display suggests the illumination right before death, like an old light bulb that brightens before it goes out. When you are on the death bed, you may have a sense of clarity that previously eluded you (provided you're not on too much morphine). The urge to forgive and make amends creates an opening in the heart that makes way for a clean departure.The imminent death of a parent unites siblings who may have accumulated resentments, keeping each other at a distance for years. Bitterness and anger are held tightly, like a toddler refusing to part with a toy. Hopefully, brothers and sisters rise above their differences to care for their parent.
Anger cannot be swept under the rug, though. It is healthy to bring it out into the open, rather than express it indirectly through passive-aggression and sideways maneuvers. When everyone's cards are out on the table, miracles can happen. The blinding white surprise of forgiveness graces all, and love reigns supreme.
Or at least that's how it would go in an ideal world. Maybe the kids just fight over the inheritance after the old fart passes on, everyone feeling shortchanged after all the sacrifices they made. "Surely I deserve more than my sister, after all, I let dad live in my basement! I knew she was his favorite! It's so unfair!"
It's really up to you to decide which direction you want to take. Will you let the death of a loved one transform you, give you the opportunity to rise to the occasion and be selfless, or will you continue to live in scarcity consciousness, fighting over assets that will be meaningless when it's your turn to meet your maker?
The Fine Print: The New Moon occurs at 17 Scorpio, in a Grand Water Trine with Mars in Cancer and Uranus in Pisces. This lunation also squares Neptune in Aquarius. If you have personal planets or angles in the second decan (10-19 degrees) of water signs, this process outlined above may go smoothly for you. If you have personal planets in the same degree areas in Taurus, Leo or Aquarius, not so easy for you.
posted by Jeffrey Kishner at 11/07/2007
4 Comments:
Heh. Saturday morning is my mom's memorial service. Fortunately, when she died 2 months ago, my brother who hadn't been speaking to me managed to get passed that, at least for the time being. So far so good. The Scorp new moon squares my Ascendant/Moon (17/18 Leo) and my Chiron (18 Aqu), appropriately enough, from the 4th house.
Leslee, please accept my sincere condolences to you on the loss of your mother.
My own mother died in 2005 and we had a memorial gathering a month or so later also.
My brother managed to get past our usual problems briefly(he did help me clean the house)but then again right after the memorial he was extremely drunk, and was verbally abusive.
Anyway--the moon squaring your Asc. and Moon sounds exactly right for what you manged to just get through..
I have a feeling that you'll have a lot of slow but very real and intense changes happening in the next year.
Again, no matter our closesness or lack of with our family members it's tough losing our mothers.
Take care Leslee.
Thank you, proserpine. I've noticed that those who have been through it have been the most helpful and touching.
Yes, I have Chiron return coming up, plus many other intense things. Sigh. Lots of change needed, though.
Sorry to hear of your troubles Leslee, when my mom's time came my relatives shocked even me, though I had some inkling of what was to come. Several, seeing her decline sought to make take advantage of it. While I had been trying to look after her myself, I pleaded for help to no avail. Some of them would come swooping in for awhile doing a couple things to make themselves look good, but were no real help. One of my second cousins did finally show some concern, but most everyone else just pandered to see what they could get out of it. After seeing the depth of their depravity I decided I have no family, and have been living that way since. I haven't spoken to or tried to contact any of them and I won't. For me the death of my mother broke any remaining illusions I had about them, I had thought when the chips were really down it might change things, but it didn't. Knowing that, I go my way unencumbered by any feelings of loyalty to try to pretend I like or trust them.It's kind of liberating in a way. Well that's the short story. hope yours is happier, I am making the best I can of mine.
On another note, though nobody bothered to tell me for a couple days when my mom died in the nursing home, she did make contact with the traditional spirit rapping and stuff though i was to upset by other developments to notice at first. It all became clear when I went to her private viewing and saw her standing next to the casket. We had a brief talk before she left with one of her old friends who had passed on a while ago. She still shows up every now and again, mostly in dreams. I suppose I should tell you I have been a reader for years and at some point realized I was a medium when I told people what the person behind their left shoulder was saying and someone finally informed me that person was dead! Then asking a bit I guess I had been doing it awhile. (They just look like normal people after all, nothing like the sixth sense thank goodness! lol!)
What I'm trying to say is, I'm quite convinced "life" goes on and after speaking with other women who have lost a mother, I am saying you can maintain a relationship even though not physical, even if you are not a medium. Your mom is your closest relative, I guess that's why most people report visits after death from their mothers more than any other relative. I hope this is some comfort to you.
My condolences.
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