The Upside of Saturn

At the closing of dance class last night, one woman was sharing that she felt she had just come out of a "winter" that started in August -- a real hard time. As difficult as it was, she said that she was grateful for the experience of heaviness, for last evening her dance -- instead of being fantastic as it usually is when she is feeling "normal" -- was "friggin' fantastic." That is, it probably was no different from her dance before her "winter," but the sheer delight in not feeling so constrained by life made her experience subjectively all the more powerful. It's like breathing normally after having been short of breath for a long time.

I didn't ask for her birth data, but given the length of a typical Saturn transit -- at least 9 months if Saturn goes retrograde over a natal planet -- and the dreariness of Saturn, I gather she had just come out from Saturn's burdensome weight. Life is sunshine again, and it's all the brighter after having been in the dark.

I'm going through my own Saturn transit right now, as it is hitting my 19 Aquarius Moon for the last time (at least this time 'round!). Earlier during this transit, I was probably walking half the speed I usually do, dragging my feet across the pavement to get wherever I had to go. Nine months to a year is a long time to carry the weight of a Saturn transit, and one can easily forget what life was like before. Perhaps an inkling that one was once alive and happy ... but it's so hard to access such feelings now, they feel more theoretical than anything. Thus, after having listened to my dancing friend last night, I feel there is hope, that come this summer I will be a free man, feeling that a walk down the street is like jumping on a trampoline.