Uranus enters Aries today. It’s a big deal. The planet of revolution and destabilization is in the first sign of the zodiac, that of the pioneer, the self-starter. Its entrance symbolizes new beginnings that tend to be shocking or that upset expectations.
I’ve been feeling very anxious recently. I have been attributing it to the fact that Uranus has been in the final degree of Pisces, the sign that “houses” my Sun, Mercury, Venus and North Node.
How is this affecting me?
Ever since Ning, the build-your-own-social-network platform, announced that it will no longer be providing its service for free, I have been contemplating a major overhaul of Sasstrology. I do not want to shell out $20 per month to host a forum, so I’ve been looking into integrating an open-source forum/social-networking platform called BuddyPress into my blog, which runs on WordPress. Namely, I want “one brand”/one destination, and I don’t want the foundation of my site to be dependent on the whims of a company that can change its policies at any time.
So I’ve been spending numerous hours, behind the scenes, beefing up my CSS/PHP skills so that I can build Sasstrology 2.0 on my own (with the help of some very smart WordPress people in various forums). Although I feel confident I can do this, I’m also feeling worried about the future. I believe that Sasstrology has the potential to be a lot bigger than it is, but I am also taking some risks by integrating the blog with the forum. (And then there’s just the fear that, even though I’m building Sass2.0 in a development environment, something could go wrong when I launch it live on Sasstrology.com.)
When I get this anxious, I remind myself that nothing has to change. I don’t have to update the technical foundations of the blog. I can just pony up the 20 bucks per month to keep the forum on Ning. I can just keep doing things the way I’ve been doing them. I have a formula right now that seems to work well enough, so why rock the boat?
Which brings me to Uranus. I really don’t think it’s healthy for me to just do the same thing week after week. I need to push myself. To do otherwise is to settle, to die on some level. I’ve been working so hard for the past few years to get to where I am, and frankly I’m not even halfway to where I want to be. (And where I need to be if I want to support my family with this endeavor.)
So I will keep soldiering on. Somehow, knowing that Uranus will backtrack into Pisces again is comforting – I can keep working on the next version of Sasstrology behind the scenes without feeling that I am obligated to move forward. I know that an inner revolution is taking place even if I’m not immediately ready to share it with the world.